tonight. i am the wolf lost in the wood. searching for his pack. and snarling at every breeze.

tonight. i am the wolf lost in the wood. searching for his pack. and snarling at every breeze.

yet another huge fight. we had a bad morning, she screamed, I panicked and handled it poorly like every other time. time at work only enhanced the issues. how did we  get to this? Idk if anyone even reads this shit when I post it but I almost don’t want anyone to read it. I make my wife sound so awful when in our entire time of knowing each other I consistently let her down. I understand how she is frustrated and afraid that she is in this alone with a me sized weight on her back. idk. I get so afraid of what an outcome could be that I create a band aid situation to fix that moment that ends up blowing up later. She’s right, I am a liar. I really do lie to her a lot. but that doesn’t mean I don’t love her. I’ve been a chronic liar as far back as I can remember… she doesn’t realize that it isn’t a switch I can flip off because believe me. I would. I really am trying my best, its just not enough. I am most honest with her and even then it’s not that often. I guess that’s even a lie. I’m most honest when I’m upset and writing crap on here… Anyway at the risk of coming to a real conclusion. I love my wife. I just wish I had the magic switch I need to get rid of the habits that are destroying our fledgling marriage. Idk what she feels or thinks when we fight and eventually settle in different rooms for the night but I know I just get depressed. I just want her to be happy but I can only seem to keep the habits that cause problems at bay for a few days at a time… This was useless, I was hoping this was going to make me feel better but it hasn’t. I see what she says though. there’s always a “but” with me. ‘i want her to be happy BUT …’ nothings ever my fault just like she says. I knwo this is my fault thought. She doesn’t make me choose to lie to her. I’ll admit it takes two to start a fight but her reasoning behind her frustration is valid and understandable. goodnight world, doubt i’ll be sleeping anytime soon but thats enough sharing for now…

oscob:

bleed-dopamine:

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Edge


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BANKSY DOES IT AGAIN!

oscob:

bleed-dopamine:

vaporwavehentai:

Edge

Word

BANKSY DOES IT AGAIN!

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2010 was a simpler time 

gotitforcheap:

2010 was a simpler time 

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girlpal:

f is for friends who do stuff together

girlpal:

f is for friends who do stuff together

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geoffrox:

Imagine if the series had ended right after this moment.

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Best friends

AZIZ & KANYE

Look at growth of this friendship, man. Love it.

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do celebrities ever get called for jury duty? imagine having shaquille o’neal declare you guilty

get slammed in two courts at once

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todayinhistory:

September 28th 551 BC: Confucius born

On this day in 551 BC, the Chinese philosopher Confucius (or, K’ung Fu-tzu in Chinese) was supposedly born. His philosophy, based on social correctness, respect and sincerity, was very influential in China and aimed to promote a way of living where everyone could live in peace. He is attributed to many classic Chinese texts and is considered one of the greatest thinkers in Chinese history. Confucianism shaped China and the surrounding area for thousands of years, and continues to do so today. One of the main principles of Confucianism is “Do not do to others what you do not want done to yourself”, which is similar to Jesus’s Golden Rule. Confucius died in 479 BC aged 71 or 72.